I've had a number of my special friends BLOW down my throat on how I no longer wrap my LEGS around them like I used to ....and for someone like me who places a lot of VALUE on friendship and relationships....it hurts that I can't be as socially LUBRICATED as I would love to be with each and everyone specially....And I think it's time to cry out for help. I've been INFECTED.... Yes!
And it started with a SOFT and TENDER whisper, full of DESIRE. I had lost some CONTROL and became RECKLESS in my entanglement with MOTIVATION......refusing to protect myself from the clutches of a somewhat fulfilling ROMANCE ignited by fire, and now I have been INFECTED.
I've been Infected with....PASSION ....and its slowly moving through my system...breaking all of my defences. And as much as I hate that its become my MASTER and I a loyal servant, attending to its every whim and letting it affect some of my other relationships, I still love the positive outcome of this VIRUS...
Virus because it takes over me, maybe even POSESSES...all of me....untill, I've used it to fuel my DRIVE and yield some great results....and then it comes right back again OBSESSED and infatuated, RAPING my entire being. Ha! I awakened from my ILLUSIVE moments of strong Invisibility....remaining hidden for fear of success, failure and even EXHAUSTION from struggling to be noticed by the universe....The fear of tapping into my GREATNESS....and embracing my own uniqueness.
I recently RE-CONNECTED with the ARTIST inside of me and I've so been busy developing my VISION. It feels like water running a marathon right through me. I have been released from my own MUTE bondage and I no longer FEEL as empty.....because I found my voice and I've refused to be shut down, by circumstance, CHALLENGE or fear.....And the only truly TESTED way for me to live, like I have nothing else to lose....is to let PASSION take control.
Now whilst this virus does have its negative side EFFECT, if not managed properly or mastered....it is one of the most important tools that drive our GREATEST loves and DEEPEST despairs. Even as I'm constantly SEARCHING for life's purpose....I like who I become when I lose my self in passion's EMBRACE and drop down my creative PANTIES to pursue PURPOSE with ORGASMIC freedom.
So if I haven't been a good friend lately, I'm sorry everyone....I have been INFECTED deeply with PASSION and it has taken control of me.
Have A Terrific Tuesday Lovelies! Kisses!