I've spent the last couple of days tending to Ray's DOMESTIC and emotional needs, as well as trying to get some work done because his babysitter left us, to tend to her sick mom who needs a lot of ATTENTION in the village. I've spent the last 3 years as a father, role playing as I go about performing "Daddy duties"....carrying that 13.5 kg gas cylinder, a 30 litre jerry can filled with PETROL and 4 dispenser bottles of water. I've had to take out the trash....manually sort out my electric board, change the bulbs and turn on the generator....Geez, I can feel my MUSCLES twitching. I still need to sneak a quick football game with Ray and pretend to car race around the living room even though my huge BUTT could never fit in Ray's toy Mercedes Benz S-Class. I have to MASSAGE my own waist and pretend the Seven Pillows on my bed make up for the perfect COMPANION ....or Ray's cute "Mummy you look beautiful?" ...."I love you mummy" is at best, the most engaging CONVERSATION I can ever have at home for now.
No, I'm not SUPER woman....I'm just the regular female with two round melons and a cat....Yes, a hairy PUSSY cat. Hehehe. I'm the one, some refer to as a 'working mother'....or wait....is it the 'single mother' you bloody hypocrites?.... Hian....even though I'm yet to figure out if the word SINGLE is a representation of my boring relationship STATUS, my supposed failure in that department or just spotlight on the heavy parental RESPONSIBILITY ahead of me....Mehn, whatever the case... you wanna switch roles with me?..... And there goes the babysitter, I always assumed would be Ray's assistant mummy. 'Assistant' because I still get to wear the cool "Mummy" hat....but understand that it's okay to have someone STEP in for me, when I need to bring home the bacon.
So you can imagine how heart BROKEN I must feel right now, knowing once again I'm alone in this STRUGGLE. No assistant mummy here to help Ray poop or even sing all of those wacky tunes Disney Junior and Cbeebies play back to back to brainwash these unassuming toddlers, that the world is all Fun and Games....Hahahah.... And certainly no Comfort here to bring me a mug of Coffee, whilst I sort out the many pending EMAILS in my box or write a new blog post.
Yes, I am certainly deprived of someone tending to my NEEDS....And I don't even mean that I need my own sitter to wipe my ass or brush my TEETH. Just someone SWEET who cares enough to ask how I'm doing today and probably offer some help pretty PLEASE. Not someone who needs me for one more favour that will stretch me mentally from here to HELL, whadeheck!!
I need someone who will take out some time in a day to perhaps ENGAGE my mind, TOUCH my heart and WET my soul. Someone who will give me the perfect distraction, a beautiful ORGASMIC release away from my present frustration.
Someone I can travel the VIRTUAL landscape as they stimulate my mind till the endless passionate waves TRIGGER a current of laughter and perhaps pours within me that which I am presently lacking in MOTIVATION. I want that wild crazy soul sex that has me giggling whenever I think I'm having a crazy day simply because nothing could be more ridiculously CRAZY than their thought process wrapped around my many hilarious ideas. I just want a mental back rub away from the LONELINESS that aches. A black out from making custard, rice or even cornflakes.
That which compels them to lay upon my soul, so we can MERGE our beautiful creative souls together and CREATE a sweet MELODY, only we can unravel in our hidden riddles....
For we all get lonely from time to time, still I want something that transcends beyond two bodies TWERKING to the sound of their own rhythm....an impulsive jolt of memories, I can take with me anywhere, even when it seems like I'm stuck alone with Ray's frantic rantings of Mickey Mouse and the Gold Fish.
In any case I think I've found my own quick FIX. All I really want is a simple SOUL SEX. Nothing more, nothing less....Can I eat your thought process, pretty please?!
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